Chocolate Pinwheels

I consumed an entire box of Pinwheel cookies tonight. Really, it was only half the box.
6 cookies. 120 calories each.
Pure chocolate marshmellow cookies.
I did share. My brother ate one and my husband ate 2. I was not selfish.
As each bit of chocolate slid down my throat,
Combined with marshmellow and a thin, cookie crust,
I waited for the happiness. The sense of fullfillment. Feelings of satisfaction.
Instead, nausea, a bloated stomach, and a headache joined the marshmellowy goodness and decomposing chocolate
A sense of why?
A feeling of disgust.
The first two cookies tasted good.
Why didn't I stop?

Mother Pain

Praying for children,
I never imagined the joy and feelings of love I'd experience.
Also, the degrees of pain and heartache were empty thoughts
Not even imagined.
How can one love someone so much
And dislike them the same degree at the same time?
Lack of respect
Lack of family loyalty
Lack of helping around the house with attitude.
And, Oh! The Attitude. It deserves a category of its own.
Rolling eyes,
Distain stabbing from slitted eyes, looking down the nose,
Body language that makes you just want to punch a hole in a wall.
I have a college degree. I am a teacher, for Heaven's sake.
I thought I was smart but, over the last 20 years, my children have chipped that idea away.
I look forward to becoming knowledgeable again.
I prayed for these children.
Someday, it will be worth it. Not today.

2010 pictures

Simply Sienna